nrlfrhna-in her own words

:(

2009-10-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

Blogger is well.. :)

Kalau Allah izinkan, kita pasti bertemu lagi......
*sobs*
Masa begitu mencemburui persahabatan kami..
Tak lama lagi, sahabat itu juga bakal pergi.

Abang abang dan kakak kakak, jangan lupa visit2 okey?
All the best for A's.

Inilah resmi hidup....
Yang datang pasti akan pergi..........
Kerana Allah, kita bertemu, kerana Allah juga, kita berpisah..
Semoga Allah tabahkan hati kita, harungi dugaan ini..

Airmata,
pasti akan membasahi pipi...
hati,
pasti akan sedih
tangan,
dengan berat melambai ianya pergi..
dan lidah,
pasti akan berdoa agar bertemu kembali..

:(

Doa di bulan Ramadhan :)

2009-08-28T21:13:00.001+08:00

Oh wanita,
jangan kau biarkan maruahmu terguris
kerana nafsu yang menyala
jangan biarkan darjatmu jatuh ditindas
kerana dirimu yang sering alpa

Ya Allah,
jika aku jatuh cinta,
biarkanlah aku melabuhkan cintaku
kepada si dia yang bertaqwa kepadaMu
kepada si dia yang mengingatkanku akan diriMu..

Ya Allah,
jadikanlah aku sepintar Aisyah,
seikhlas Fathimah,
setabah Siti Sarah,
semulia Siti Khadijah

Ya Allah,
bukalah hatiku agar senang menerima ilmuMu
penuhkanlah hatiku dengan cinta terhadap diriMu
bimbinglah diriku agar aku tidak melupakan DiriMu
lindungilah diriku dari segala yang merosakkan akhlakku..

Ya Allah,
jauhkanlah diriku dari hasad dan dengki
datangkanlah keikhlasan kedalam jiwa ku
ampunilah segala doasaku
dan bukalah pintu syrgaMu untukku

National day

2009-08-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO BLOGGY!!!
TODAY, GEREK!!!
HAPPY ADVANCED NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE!!

Today,
my friends from MWTI celebrated our National Day at Tampines Stadium. Kene sampai pukul 7 15 am. Selesema and batuk tapi, I attended it..
Bak kata orang, SEMANGAT!!
Its like the real national day.. minus the performances(because we had sports day) and the President and his team.. We had the Mayor though.. He was great!!
I was awed the whole time... macam orang jakon..

Sports day pula..
EVERYONE GAVE THEIR BEST SHOT!!
CONGRATS TO ALL THE ATHELETES!!
CONGRATS TO TAMLIKHA, AMMAR AND OF COURSE, HIDIR!!!
CONGRATS TO JAFNI, KHAIRUL, BAIHAKKI..
CONGRATS PRE U!!!

During the sports day, Mr. Salik asked the P6 to sing their PSLE song.. I was surprised to hear the tone and song was actually our council song back in Arabiah.. Except that some words were changed Immediately, the feelings of missing Arabiah and those times with students council fillled me. So, I sang my heart out.. I miss those times when Mr. Salik was our mentor and we had Mr. Zulkarnain around.. I miss Arabiah...
I remembered, during camps or trainings,
Mr. Salik used to shout, "ON GUARD!"
We, the councillors will say, "YEAH!!"
"ON GUARD ON GUARD!!
"YEAH YEAH!!"

Despite feeling sick,
The event, to me, was worth attending...

CONGRATS TO ARABIAH!!!
Da maju sekarang ye?? :)
May Allah grant you success...

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!
I hope Singapore, will recover from the difficulty that she is facing now. As long as the citizens continue to care for one another, as long as the citizens continue to stay as one and as long as the citizens continue to work together with the government, Singapore can overcome anything. GO SINGAPORE!!

Thats all from me..
Take are people...
We'll have holidays till Monday, right? I suggest, why not spend time with friends and family? Happy family is a source of great citizens right? Take a day off and relax.. Don't fret, smile... hee~

Lots of love,
nurulfarhana...

colourless

2009-08-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

Why colourless?
because I am feeling sick... sejak semalam rasa nak muntah je.. sakit tekak, batuk...
suara pun da lain sekarang...
rasa macam nak demam...
tapi saya nak datang skola..
I am very excited for Saturday's event. CAN'T WAIT!!!
Da 3 kali practice nyanyi lagu kebangsaan, lagu sekolah, lagu kemasyarakatan.. Mana boleh MC?
Semangat ni!
First ever National Day Celebration cum Sports day with MWTI.. FUH!
CONFIRM BEST!!!

I MISS ARABIAH!! CONGRATS ARABIAH!! MISS THOSE PEOPLE!!
To Tam who managed to have his poetry published in BH yesterday, CONGRATS!!

k la.. tu je.. take care.. have a great day ahead...
bye

hahaha :)

2009-08-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

Alright!
Today was like an adventure...
Mcm Test tahap kesabaran Pre U 1
In the morning, as I was walking to enter the classroom, I heard a lot of girls shouting. Iza was running out of the classroom
Aisyah A went, "confirm cicak nye."
She was right. When we entered the class, Hidir was chasing the cicak.
I was approaching my seat when Izyana went,
"Far, cicak.."
I went, "oh well.."
Because by then, Hidir already have the cicak on a piece of an un used poster. Thanks Hidir!
Thanks to Mr. Cicak, class was total chaos!
Ada orang sampai duduk atas meja... LOL

Our trouble did not stop there.
The aircon brokedown.
We spent about half and hour or more in a very hot classroom.
Semua keluarkan weapon!
Nak tahu weapon dia ape?
Betul eh, tak menyesal...
Betul ni?
K.. K.. Kita bilang...

KIPAS!!!!

After Ustaz Halim's period, we used Sec 4.1's classroom.
Class tu, BEST TO THE MAX!!!

After Ustazah Saodah's period, we returned to our beloved classroom.
Spent 3 hours of GP lesson there..

Cobaan Cobaan...
HAHAHAHA.. but it was FUN!!!

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Hmm... Purdah? Mesir?
Kita saksikan nanti... :)

S.E.A..
sentiasa.. always.. abadan abadaa

Mushtaq...
To who??
Betul nak tahu?
Tak menyesal..
Kita cakap ni...
Kita cakap tau...

SUSHI!!! Ala.. makan Jepun tu la...

Apa la si dek ni bebual...

Take care everyone!
Lots of love,
nrlfrhna

Today..

2009-07-27T18:51:00.001+08:00

"Ditegur salah...
Tak tegur pun salah...
Buat aku menyampah..
Ditegur nanti kata busybody..
baik aku diam diri...".
- Kumpulan Dikir Barat Arabiah yang telah ditubuhkan 3 tahun lalu khas untuk persembahan hari guru.

Sometimes, I feel that some people, including me sometimes, cannot be advised. Why? We never listen. Maybe we will listen but only at that moment. However, we ignore it afterward. Kita da tegur, suruh senyap, suruh behave, sama juga... Ada yang buat bodoh lagi ada.. Should we keep quiet? No, right? Hmmmm........... Sabar ajala..

Anyway!
Today is not that bad of a day.. Boleh la tahan.. Alhamdullilah..
Sebok tu tak sangat..
Nari Nurul balik cepat... Whee~
Izza was absent so Syanaz shifted to her place and let Aisyah have her seat.. HAHAHA and the three of us went crazy together!! Rindu IZZA. LOL..

congrats and thanks you

2009-07-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

I saw the dream and I want it..
The week has been tiring enough to make me fall asleep right here on my keyboard..
However, there's a workshop tomorrow. 10am-4pm FUH!!!

CONGRATULATIONS TO MADRASAH ALJUNIED FOR BECOMING THE CHAMPION OF BAHAS 4PM!!! (I know this is sort of late but I hadn't had time yesterday..k...)
This proves that, madrasah CAN achieve the best!
To MWTI, JOB WELL DONE!!
To Syafiqah and Tam, CONGRATS for being the best debator for your rounds!

Anyway, today was fun and tiring though..
Nadi Lughah organised a mini bazaar and every club get to participate and sell things.. SEA sold drink, fruits, and fried stuff..
Instead of Old ChangKee we had NEW CHUNKY
Lol.. creative, right?
:)
The drinks were nice..
I still couldn't get enough of taufiq's air batu nenas!! It was delicious!! I had four and still couldn't get enough!!
Then there was Hidia's brownies!! I savoured it until the last bit! I was eating so slowly until I check in my pocket and went, "alamak! Tinggal plastic je?"
LOL
Then the drink the Sec 3s sold were delicious too!
As for S.E.A, I like the drinks and the food! I like SEA!! GO SEA! THANK YOU SEA!!
I love SEA!! THANK YOU NADI LUGHAH for the opportunity!! Thank you PERBAYU AND NF!

I'm so tired!! Wish me a great week! Ya Allah, bless us All with a great week!

Last night, at Caldecott hill, at one glance, I knew what I want.. It still is..

Take care all!
Goodnight,
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

Exhausted

2009-07-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

I............
am very very very very TIRED!!!!
But how can I sleep if I do not fulfil my role as a student??
Students are suppose to study, learn and achieve the best...
STUDY.... right..-.-
I haven't even touch a single page since I got back from home..
I feel extremely exhausted..
These few days have been exhilariting... Its like taking the roller coaster many times without stopping.. There's Always something to do.. -.-
We were slightly lost while doing our duty today so we dragged the former assistant head prefect and Sya to help us!
Thanks, kak and sya!!
Gee.. I miss seeing my seniors do their job..
They were so cool!!
Never mind, we'll be fine... We can do it!
I believe, the new team CAN do it, make everyone proud and fulfill its mission!! InsyaAllah...
Seriously, I feel like laying down and not moving..
Did I mention that there's a test tomorrow?? Hadith 40 for A levels.. So in other words, its in Malay.. But still...

SACRIFICE...
Right...
Big word isn't it?
Not big as in the size.. but big as in its meaning
As a person, we tend to have to make lots of sacrifices.. As leaders especially... Sometimes we can't follow what our hearts want because, we want the best for others. Show good example, lead by example.. LEAD BY EXAMPLE.. So, in order to lead, we must set a good example, no matter what the reasons are, right? Hmm...
What we want may not be the best for us.. Only Allah knows..
Hmmm..

Tired now
Gotta go study for the test..
take care all, goodnight
lots of love, nrlfrhna

musings part one

2009-07-19T19:52:00.001+08:00

Ouch!!
Its overwhelming.
Really..
Felt as if a thousand bricks with the word reality on it just hit me.. .
This new feeling... I don't undestand..
I hate it when people say, "I have confidence in you bla bla bla..."
How can you people say it when I have not even show it?
It's encouraging though, thanks... :)
I can do it.. I hope.. I think...
I've helped Jannah for 4 years, I know I'll be able to help them(my presidents and my head prefects especially, ain)..
Gee.. the worst thing is that, I can hear Jannah babbling at me, "eik, fana, stop it seih.. awk ni cam tak biasa je.."
-.-
Jannah... I miss her.. so much
A friend that went through thick and thin with me...
I want her with me.. always...
Forever..
Izza.. You have no idea how grateful I am that you're here with me, every second of my life..
You're the only person in MWTI that knows me in side out..
Thank you Izza...

Exams in 3 months or less.. Am I prepared? Duh.. NO..
This so overwhelming.. shish..-.-

I have to stop these musings..
My brain will have to focus for one minute..
Come on, brain..

Have a great week ahead!!
InsyaAllah, khair..
Take care!!
-nrlfrhna

pondering

2009-07-12T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hello bloggy!
sorry for almost abandoning you
Didn't mean to..
I just have something to share.
I've came back to my senses after meeting one of my most beloved teachers, Ustazah Rushydah for a small reunion today..
We talked and I felt as if I was hit by concrete again and again and again..
I'm a leader who is suppose to show a good example. What did I do? Definitely not that..
Sacrifice.. be dear to the people.. Show a good example. Open my mind. Learn. Teach. Those are what I'm suppose to do. I had been a little more to the irresponsible section. RESPONSIBILITY. I agreed to this meaning I have to be RESPONSIBLE for my actions on it.
Can't believe it took me such a long time to re-realise! With the way I feel, I think, I need Mr. Salik to yell at me, "WHO DO YOU THINK TO ARE? WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE OTHERS?"
Those times a council camp. Hit me hard when Ustazah was talking. I need that yelling and strictness. I need my dear friend Jannah to tell me what's right at the end of the day. Remind me of my mistakes.
Ustazah kept emphasizing on the need to be with friends who constantly remind you of the right path, of Allah. Remind you of your responsibilities. As a Muslim. A sister. A leader. Whatever there is. "Hidupkan alumni. Hidupkan Islam." That was her subject.
Thank you Ustazah, barakkAllahufiiha. I love her lots. :)

Ya Allah.. I need you.. Guide me, please..

I have to set my priorities right from now on. I will. Please, bear with my change, dear classmates from pre university 1. I will be less of the person you know.

Anyway, I'm praying for a great week for everyone. Its going to be slightly tough without Ustaz Salam. However, this is life. We have to move on and be optimistic. Remind each other that Allah is always with us.
Ms. Bazitah once asked, "If you want to be a leader, what kind of leader do you want to be? If you want to be a Muslim, what kind of Muslim do you want to be?"
Now that is something to ponder on isn't it?
I want to be a Muslimah who is dear to people around her. Who knows what's right and what's wrong. Who listens, who perceives the truth and not the lies. Who comprehends and loves beings around her more than she loves herself. Ya Allah, make me this person. Amin..
Ustazah Rusydah reminded us to pray to Allah and work hard for the right things. Insya Allah, I'll try to do it..

Take care All..
May Allah bless us with another great week. InsyaAllah..
La haula wala quwwata illa billah..

Lots of love, nrlfrhna

bye

2009-07-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

hello bloggy!!
its been long.. well sort of..

Yesterday was saddening as we had to say goodbye to one of our most respected and beloved teachers, ustaz salam.. I was called in front during assembly to say a few words to him after Jafni, who willingly gave his speech. I was trembling and I had no idea what to say so I just say whatever it is thats in my mind. After my speech, I sat down, look at Seri Hannah and cried.. It feels as if I had just known Ustaz. He left too soon.. *sobs* Ustaz taught my mates and I, Nahu and Adab. He is one of the best teachers I've ever met.. THANK YOU!! I will FB ustaz sometime.. hee~ "Nahnu usrah wahidah" -ustaz Salam.

AYG. TATA
BYE MY FRIENDS..
LOL
Went for the appreciation night yesterday.. Amni's voice was melodious! It was great! We got ourselves mini Frasia! LOL

I am dead sleepy actually.. I slept late this few days.. I don't know why.. I can't seem to fall asleep until 12am..

I was about to help out with APEX today, when meeting calls! Its hard being a leader sometimes, a lot of sacrifice had to be made.. I just hope whatever sacrifice we had to do, is worth it. InsyaAllah..

Lots of love,nrlfrhna

AYG :)

2009-07-03T21:29:00.002+08:00

Hello Mr. Bloggy!!

What a week!
I'll tell you all about it, except that, I'll skip Monday...

Tuesday:
Well, I wasn't present in school because some of the others and I had the opportunity to be involved in the Cultural Education Programme (CEP) at the Atheletes' Village, Swiss Hotel for Asian Youth Games (AYG). We had to become interpreters. Some of us for Arabic and some of us for Bahasa. It was great fun! It started out at 8:45am. Met Ren Kai and was sent to the ballroom to read through some notes. Then was sent outside the ballroom to wait until workshop starts. Attended workshop and made some new friends. (Firdaus, Hyung, that Japanese Woman and Danny)
After workshop, it was LUNCH TIME! I was so happy that it arrived because by that time, I was so RAVENOUS! We ate rice with satay and some sort of vegetable gravy. YUMMO!
After lunch, we started our work. I paired up with Ain to translate in Arabic. It was boring at first. Some of the Arab guys ran away from us but they came back with their friends afterwards to join in CEP. It was then we get our very first chance in translating!!
In between waiting for Arabs, we went over to the booths and tried our hands and minds at the activities such as quizzes and ceramic-painting

Wednesday:
Went to school as per normal. GP!!! I earned marks which consist of 2-digits.. The new ustaz entered class.. WHEE~

Thursday:
Went to school in the morning. After school, I headed straight to Raffles City to change into P.E attire then attended CEP. Paired up with Azlina. IT WAS FUN but tiring. WHEE~

Today:
Went to school as per normal then joined in Kutipan derma.. FUN!

So here are some of the friends I met:

Hyun: My Korean friend. She is SUPER nice! A little shy and independent though. :) She's 16 year old and studies at United World College. She's been staying in Singapore since 3 years ago.

Danny: GAH! LOL. My Chinese friend. He seemed so introverted at first when Hidia and I had him as one of our teammates during the workshop but he shocked me. I fell on the floor.. GEDEBUK! LOL. During one of the games, he was behind me and he started talking and at first I was like, what? But we get along. He is SO nice!

Firdaus: The facilitator for Amazing Food race. He is SUPER friendly and Super smiley. He bowls.

Ren Kai: He was in charge of us. Member of water polo team. VERY friendly, always busy and kind..

Great, right? :)

Fakes and Plastic. Will talk about them tomorrow.
See ya!
TAKE CARE!
Lots of love,
nrlfrhna

Not OK

2009-06-29T18:50:00.002+08:00

Hello people!
So, hello first day of school!
School was great, Alhamdullilah.. though we had to queue up outside the gate, hand in declaration form then get our temperatures checked then get a green sticker whee! Then go to class.. We had to check our temperatures thrice today.. H1N1 seems to be spreading fast.. Hmmm...

Anyway..
TOMORROW... hello Asian Youth Games..
Yesterday. Prepare for school...

I am so sad that holidays are over but I'm excited as to what I'm about to venture.. Macam, eh, lepas ni apa eh? LOL
Experienced lots this holiday.. Kinda tired, really.. LOL

kau buat aku.... LOL..

I wonder, why is it that everytime I grab hold of something precious, it slips right through my grasp.. *tears* Never mind.. just have to be patient.. :(

I suppose if it hurts, it has to be good.. InsyaAllah...

Take care
Have a great week ahead!
Happy schooling!
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

I hate term 3

2009-06-27T11:21:00.004+08:00

Who else here hate term 3?
Term 3 will go by even faster than the two terms.. one week holiday in September is meant for revisions.. pfft...Moreover, from what I heard, things are going to change in MWTI.. kinda scared and worried...
I'm so stress about it, that I had to cry sometimes..
I hope I can do it.
Just need to earn that self discipline and self confidence that I once had.. UGH

Currently at Kay Siang Road for the MLS programme.. feeling kind of lonely.. :( nasib baik la my mates online bleh juga chat.. thanks to the 3 musketeers! LOL
I guess I'm going for lunch alone today.. Oh well.. hahahaha

You know, being alone sometimes is good.. It makes you think and appreciate people around you even more. I have been really angry with someone since last week, I think. I wondered why his words hurt me so much when it is only words that he says. I just hate it. Words won't break me like how a heavy amount of concrete will.. Words, they will fly away like a fly.. It does..
According to someone, I'm being childish. I hate it but I have to admit.. I AM being childish.. I need to learn to be more accepting of things around me.. You've been forgiven BUT I won't give in that easily.. I will change, but you must do your part too.. Just stop thinking that you're better than everyone else because you're not. No one is... that's why there are such things are friends, teachers, pet, families and etc2... I guess...

What do I want? Hmm..
I don't know.. I just want to make others happy..
I guess..
I'm torn really.. especially in school.. I want to make the others happy so they'll be able to appreciate the school more and we can make the school a better place together. However, I want to be able to help the teachers too..
What can I do? Hmm

I feel like reading..
See you guys later..
lots of love, nrlfrhna

Tribute to Secondary 5 '08 and everything else

2009-06-23T19:37:00.003+08:00

Students' Council 2007

The 5 of Us

Secondary 4 2007

SECONDARY 5 2008!!

Dearest mates,

I know that it is somehow too late to say this,

but I believe it will never be too late,

as long as you guys lived in my heart.

Dearest buddies,

I just want you guys to know that,

I cherish every memory we created together,

the times we shared together,

will always etch in my mind.

I believe, I will never forget you guys.

Dearest brothers and sisters,

Oh how can I forget!

All the lovely times we spent as a family!

All those lovely meals and things we share!

Oh how will I forget!

Laughing over class clowns' jokes!

Dian, Hajar, Yana, Maya, Rusdi, Ainunl, Syafiq,

Oh my! How funny you guys are!

Tasting delicious dishes!

Zarah, Shahidah, Mazni, Abuza,

Oh goody! How scrumptuous those meals of yours are!

Getting free tutoring every single day!

Fea', Jannah, Hanif, Faarooq, Farzan, Majidah

My my, how witty you guys are!

Listening to melodious Quran recitations and Azan!

Sadiq, Hakim,

Your voices are even more beautiful then the sound of chirping birds!

Being inspired by your hard work!

Ainn, Nadhirah, Afifah, Diyanah, Kak Wan, Atik, Qamar!

Dear dear, may Allah bless you for all you've done!

Our money is always save!

Thanks to hands of Izza's!

Bounded my sounds that add cheerfulness!

Suaidah, Yaya!

Oh my! How I miss your laughter!

Watching smart tricks and playing new gams for free!

Thanks Abg Magic (Yat) and Abbas for being exceptionally SMART!

& these are what make our class, the best!

Dearest pals,

when its raining or when its shining,

high hills or through dense rainforests,

in happiness, in sadness,

we've been through it all together.

Despite our vivid differences, we became family.

We fought our hardest to be the best,

We strive through darkness to reach the end,

We stayed as one through it all,

To each other, we're more than a friend.

We're best friends, bullies, tutors, siblings, pals, jokers,

together we're

MARHABANS!!

Secondary 5 2008,

I will forever remember everything we've done together

I will cherish those times we spent together,

Never will I once, forget you guys

thank you for all the great times,

My heart will always be with you..

____________________________________________________________________

I miss my team from exco 07

I miss the 5 of us and Maziah

All the others who never fail to make me smile during those years in Arabiah.

Haryanti, bff, YOU ROCK!

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Went to Arabiah @ Toa Payoh today...

I was shocked!

The place was huge

There's a basketball court, a field, science lab, library, school hall!

Finally!! ^^

We even have a bridge and a garden

We're sharing that building with Mendaki, though.. woots!

I love all the teachers there!

Spent sometime with Ustaz Muhammad and his jokes! LOL

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I miss my pre university 1 mates too!!

Met them today for classes, but it seems so short because we had to study..

I miss our jokes, our banters, our discussions. LOL

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Up untill now, I find it difficult to let go of the past..

Whatever there was, still is...

I'd better go!

Have a great week, people!

Lots of love,

nrlfrhna

miss me? LOL

2009-06-21T21:16:00.002+08:00

Hello!!
Two more days and I will finally get a chance to see my beloved ex teachers and other people from ARABIAH!!
Can't wait..
Meanwhile..
In my brain..
Mushabbah Mushabbah bihi wajhusshabah adatusshabah! I mean Balaghah, Nahu, Insya and All the other subjects..GP? Err... sort of.. I'm still busy with the notes.. -.- hee~ :)
I miss my lesson...
HOWEVER!!
I am not looking forward for the new term to start..
Why?
Those schedules
Those homeworks
FINAL YEAR EXAMS!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I've slacked first half.
Will I be able to make it?
Yes yes yes.... InsyaAllah
If I study study study
&
plan my schedule
better better better
RIGHT?
*nods*
-.-
So that makes new term look more exciting, I guess.. Right??
*nods*
because it is really up to me, right??
*nods*
Okay, fine.. then I will.. InsyaAllah..

Today, I spend time reading.. LM Montgomery's Emily Climb.. LOVE IT!!
Emily is a girl filled with aspirations and dreams.. She never gives up even when everyone is against her. She's confident and wise.. I want to be someone of that sort. Of course with a little bit of Nrlfrhna-ness which will never fade despite whatever it is that was laid upon me.. LOL

Alright!
Here are my schedule for the week:
Monday: Mugging.. I want to catch up, remember?
Tuesday: 8:30.. Maths remedial.. WHEE and more mugging! Whee~
Wednesday: 9 am.. Arabiah-ness!! Double WHEE I wanna to watch Transformers!!
Thursday: MLS program for AYG at Kay Siang Road
Friday: Mugging
Saturday: MLS program
Sunday: Tuition? Bila nak start?? LOL or else Mugging..
Those who care to join me for my mugging sessions, feel free to SMS..

I'm craving for nachos.. Hmm.. Too bad I'm on chips-break! Grrrr...

You people must miss me! I'm always busy, I know.. SORRY.. I will try my best to make it up soon. Do sms, I'll reply if I have the time.. or else, sms me after 10pm.. I'll be around.. I think.. LOL..

TAKE CARE!!
HAVE A GREAT WEEK!
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

oogly woogly

2009-06-19T21:25:00.002+08:00

Hey there world!
Today was a ooogly woogly day..
oogly woogly?
that's just my saying for crazy..
started of in the morning with mama then met up with Yatiee to go for AYG training thingy at Kay Siang Road.. We took a cab from Redhill MRT because we were very very late. However guess what?
He doesn't know how to get there. So we had to direct him there. "Uncle, you should turn back.."
We even had to open up a map and show it to him.. LOL

This week had been crazy and I can't wait for next week. Arabiah is moving and insyaAllah, I'll be a part of it.. CAN'T wait to meet all the teachers!! Miss them so much!!

Anyway, life has been good.. Alhamdullilah but, I am doubty about certain things.. I don't know what I want.. I hope Allah will show me the way.. Amiin...

I'm mugging tomorrow!!
Care to join? LOL
do SMS
until then, tkcr!
have a great weekend!!
lots of love, nrlfrhna

camps

2009-06-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hello!
Assalamualaikum!
I'm a lot better! I've rested and I'm ready for another tiring day or week.
Had Perbayu camp yesterday. Went there as a faci for 4 brilliant schoolmates! FYI, they are all younger than me! Raihanah, Khairunnisa, Atikah, Ayuni. They were great as a team. They worked together, and smile despite having difficulty completing the challenges. More importantly, they seemed to enjoy what they were doing. They won best group, because of their own efforts. GREAT JOB GUYS!
CONGRATULATIONS TO HAYATI'S TEAM AND HIDIR'S TEAM FOR WINNING 1ST AND 2ND PLACE RESPECTIVELY!!
TO THE OTHERS, BRILLIANT JOB!
To PERBAYU PEOPLE, THANK YOU FOR ORGANISING SUCH EVENTS! EVERYONE LEARNED A LOT BECAUSE OF IT! THANKS AND JOB WELL DONE!
MARHA MARHA!

Then, there's APEX camp.
Was kinda sad it ended.. I love it! The kids, the people! Everything! May Allah bless them with the best results for PSLE. AMin.. The others have done such at helping them out! Barakallahu fiikum!

Alright then!
Hmm.. well, I hope, I will find that star someday.. because I need someone to help me shine the world... Someday, insyaAllah.. Hey, a girl can dream, right? LOL
Contributing, well.. it sometimes help me forget the past.. HEE~

Hmm.. I might as well keep quiet cos there is nothing else to say..
I miss my mates of secondary 5 '2008!!

Take care everyone!
Have a great weekend ahead!
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

Dian!!

2009-06-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DIAN RAIHANA ZULKIFLI!!

Dian,

kita tak dapat jumpa

So, ini je yang sempat ku kirim buat mu (cheys..)

Aku rindu banget sama loh...

Kau, mama renggo ku..

Chong kterg..

Dulu kau suka kacau aku..

Kau karaoke dalam kelas

Tapi too bad uh, takda audience..

Kau juga clown dalam hidup aku.

Tapi beza kau dengan clown,

ada la,

kau comel dan ganas siket..

Dian, selain daripada Hajar,

kau juga tukang conteng buku2 dan kertas kertas aku..

Tapi,

sebelum kita berpisah dulu,

ada nota yang kau tulis, yang sangat aku hargai, sampai sekarang.

Nota tu, sweet sangat.. Belum dikoyakkan pon.. masih ada dalam shelf aku...

17th September 2009. 3:04Pm.. Itulah tarikh dan masa kau tulis nota tu..

Mama renggo, YOU ROCK!!!

Rindu dan sayang kau...

Anyway

Today was a great day, Alhamdullilah!

Helped out as a station master at APEX camp.

Met some nice people:

Abang Ishak ~ Abang ni, kelakar to the max! Ada2 je dia... Dia tak habis2 bebel dengan Far sebab Far tak jawab dan tak call dia semalam malam untuk confirmkan my attendance. Naik rollerskate, jatuh juga akhirnya.. Lol.. Tapi, no doubt, de baik..

Kak Waniee~ Kakak ni, kecoh! Kalah Far. Dia kakak paling friendly and energetic..

Kak Siti Sarah~ Kakak ni cute!! Kecoh banget sey dia! Naik rollerskate, tak tahu macam mana nak break! Safety officer la kata kan, nasib pun dia tahu macam mana nak control kestabilan agar tak cedera semasa sengaja terjatuh!

Kak Nur Sarah~ Fatah nye kakak! CUTE!! SEMANGAT TO THE CORE! Dia macam ganas gitu...

Abang Shahidin~ Abang ni, senyap je.. Tak banyak cakap. Tapi reliable sangat sangat. Sanggup dia jalan from one station to another just to pass message. Padahal, boleh call.. Dia kemas admin station.. Angkat barang tak stop2..

Tadi, bila jaga station macam awkward sedikit sebab kene lead depan abang2 dan kakak kakak, yang jauh lagi berpengalaman dari Far.. Nasib baik ada Najihah, kalau tidak, jatuh tak bangun! Thanks abang Ishak sebab bagi motivation.

Budak2 cute banget! Kecoh! Tapi no doubt, gerek. Abang Abang dan kakak kakak disekeliling pon baik baik belaka.. Friendly dan boleh diajak berbual. Thanks kepada semua! Especially to Nurnajihah Zulkifli!

What's in my heart goes to my brain

I'd rather, have someone who can't juggle 2 tasks at once, yet focused on what he or she is doing than someone who can juggle but thinks he or she too good and boss people around.

K! Thats all!

TAKE CARE!

HAVE A GREAT DAY TOMORROW!

Lots of love, nrlfrhna

Singlish :)

2009-06-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Hey there!
K.. in conjuction with the topic for for GP, I spent sometime reading articles on Singlish. Apart from that, I also took the time to learn more of it. LOL
So, here's what I think of Singlish.
To me, it is a unique way of understanding others. It is also a way for us heartlanders not to make ourselves look too extravagant or proud. It also give us a better sense of friendship with fellow mates. Apart from it, it's a different way to emphasize on something or to say bad things without really offending someone. For example, instead of saying, "He is so stupid." We sometimes say, "He is so sotong.." Though, of course, I don't think it's meant to be used in more formal occasions. Such as signing a business deal or writing resumes..

Ks.. So yeah!
TO LOTS OF PEOPLE, minta maaf kalau tak layan ke apa ke..
Haha
My cellphone is taking a break.. LOL
tak adalah.. I malas nak angkat phone or balas SMS..
to secondary 5 '08, gathering? SET UH!!

I gotta go now,
take care, people!
Have a great holiday!!

dang..

2009-06-08T11:13:00.002+08:00

Haha
Ks, so it's 11:24 in the morning and I'm updating.
WHY?
I just had to get these thoughts out of my mind.

Do you ever get that feeling when you just want to really tell people what you've been feeling inside but you can't because you pity them? Because what you're going to say hurts and you know they're not going to accept it? Oh well... YEAH! Truth. It the most difficult thing to accept. Only the most open people can accept it. Hurt. GEEEEERRRRRRRRRRDDDDDDDAAAAANGGG... It hurts A lot! But sometimes, it has to go out, otherwise it'll spread from one person to another...

Sometimes, people care so much for others that they lost themselves. They leave themselves behind. They care so much that they forgot their self-worth. Hence, turning them into a real wuss when the going gets bad. If you continue doing things for others and forgot to do things for yourself then, you'll become unhappy then get fat then turn horrible. I think, it's important to give yourself time for yourself. It sounds selfish but, if you're happy then everyone else around you will be happy. If you're grubby, everyone around you is not going to be in a good mood either. Exercise, watch comedies, do anything that can make yourself feel happy. Spread positive energy around and all that. :)

Anyway, CONGRATS to the newlyweds.. May Allah bless your marriage. Photos are at FB.

Dear, dear, I gotta study.. I miss my lessons at MWTI... I'm getting used to life there . The rules, the people, the food, the library.. EVERYTHING! I love my mates.. PRE UNIVERSITY 1 '2009 ROCKS TO THE CORE! It's going to take a little more time for me to really adapt to the change, but yeah! I'm ready for it.. It's a BIG change hey... but yeah! A couple more weeks and I shall declare myself, adapted. LOL

Ouh well.. what a holiday! It's a holiday alright.. But I have lots of work to do! I don't want to miss out my chances of getting some good grades for the end of year exams..
K then, I gotta go

What if human beings do have wings..? Hmmm..
TAKE CARE!
Lots of love,
nrlfrhna

Mood

2009-06-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

Hello..
I'm such in a crazy mood today..
Why?
Because..
I've just read my past posts and they stink. Most of it. Especially the doodoo past part.
It was hilarious la.. Like, whatha~
I believe, when I typed those things in, I typed it with feelings.
However, now that time has passed, I read it again and I went,
"WHATHA~?"
Felt stupid really..
It's like... stupid uh..
Glad those things are behind me..

Now, I'm single and contented.
Everything seems clear.
I have lots of friends and a family that loves me...
A very adorable pet, Romeo
&
I won't leave my heart without armour again...
I'm happy..
Just like my name.. Nurul Farhana.. Light of Happiness..
WHEE~
Haha

I am rotting.. here.. HELP.. lol
Anyway, Arabiah's moving. 4th week of this month
*sobs*
I'm going to miss the place!!
Cik Ana's honey chicken
Cik Baru tu punya ayam goreng...
Ice cream!
The classroom on the 4th floor.
The MPH
The 6th floor toilet
The staircase
The noticeboard on the ground floor.
EVERYTHING!!!
I remember, stepping into that building for the first time with the other councillors with Mr. Salik and Ustaz Murad, having meetings at the resource room, sitting outside the classroom with my mates when there was no teacher in class, coming early as a class to complete our homework together, having Jannah with me, ALWAYS, my mates!
I LOVE THAT PLACE!!
I LOVE Jln Slamat too..

I have to visit that place again for the last time.. It's been far too long..
K then.. I'd better go now
Preparations for tomorrow's activities

Oh yeah.. My list of activities for next week:
Monday: Lunch with kids from old school.. KIV
Tuesday: FREE
Wednesday: Class and supporting bahas
Thursday: Out with new mates and meeting
Friday: camp!
Saturday: Camp!
Sunday CAMP

I'd better go now..
~I feel like flying. Too bad I don't have any wings.. *sighs* ~
TAKE CARE!
HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

HAPPY JUNE HOLIDAYS

2009-06-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

Hello All!
Today, I will be blogging in Malay and of course, English.

First and foremost..
HAPPY JUNE HOLIDAYS!!
I know it's a little late but, yeah, I haven't been updating...
Sebab, Far busy sedikit last few days..
Buat apa?
Buat bodoh...
Tak la..
Belajar, keluar, dan lain lain
:)

So, my holidays started off on Thursday, 28th of May 2009, of which I spent it with my club members to survey some places. Then the week follows on until today, 4th of May 2009, Sunday where I went out a bit and sit at home the whole day.

NRLFRHNA nak cakap sedikit
Ada sesetengah pihak yang tak suka tengok orang buat baik. Bila dia tengok orang buat baik, dia cakap orang tu step baik la, apa la.. Apa saja entah.. Ni hari tu da discuss dalam kelas.. Kepada yang suka buat baik, teruskanlah perjuangan!!

Hmm.. I was thinking of compiling GP drafts, notes whatever.. So we can share it with the class.. Amacam?
I'll think about it..

Kalau saya kejar bintang, awak nak ikut tak?
If I chase the stars, would you like to come with me?

LOL
ramblings
gotta go now!
I have work to do!
Anyway, I want to recommed this song titled "If today was you last day"- Nickelback
:)
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

I fell bad..

2009-05-30T21:41:00.005+08:00

Nak lari...
Kejar bintang...
LOL

Feeling strangely down today..... Nak tahu kenapa? Tak payahlah... Ni kes jalan dekat tempat yang sama. Lepas tu da jatuh, lepas tu bangun.. For a while, bangun,then jatuh lagi. Ni tak teruk sangat... Tapi still... :(
Let's forget it..

K...I'll stop my ramblings.. couldn't help it...
I went out to support my mates for bahas today!
All the best for MWTI!! WOOTS!

Went moon-gazing yesterday... Met lots of people..
Including NURUL FATHIN WAFDA!! Miss her lots..
CONGRATULATIONS TO HER!!

I fell..Hard...
Sadly, I didn't want to get up..

Anyway, MUGGING SESSION STARTS TOMORROW!
With subjects I like most... :)

To my classmates: siapa2 nak pegi GP remedial, silalah tag disini atau sms ye?? THANKS

Tata..
lots of love,
nrlfrhna

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

2009-05-29T11:56:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME!!! THANKS TO THE PEOPLE WHO MADE IT REAL!!
Fuhh!! I had a blast yesterday!!
WHY?
Some S.E.A members and I went out to see some areas.. Afterwards, , we met up with some others and sort of celebrated the first day of HOLIDAYS!!Hahaha
S.E.A thingy finished at Boat Quay. Our celebration started at Pizza Hut ! We went bowling then hung out at Boat Quay and Esplanade area.
Everything minus s.e.a thingy was totally unplanned!! HAHA.. gerek uh.. Photos are at FB.. woots!! Hahaha

TODAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NURHAYATI AND NURUL AISYAH!
HAPPY SWEET 17 TO YATIEE(Hayati)
HAPPY SWEET 18 TO NURUL AISYAH!!
BEST MATES EVER!! MAY BOTH OF YOU BE GRANTED THE BEST!! LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH!!

TO THOSE GETTING THEIR REPORT BOOKS , ALL THE BEST!!

Sorry readers, I just need to get this message across to someone:
"I.. have decided on what I want and I'm not going back.. I'm not going to continue to hurt others .. What's past is past.. It's been over a year.. I stayed loyal but if this is how things are, then I'm going to accept it and be happy. I'm not going to freeze my heart anymore...The wait has ended even if I feel how I feel. Those things, will change.
I've changed and so will things.
I just hope you smile, always &..
That'll be my prayers for you.
Always.

Life for me, Alhamdullilah had been great.. I had some rough times at first but as time goes by, I manage to grow even stronger despite the way I felt, despite everyting. I'm better and stronger now.I know what I want. So do you.
HAHA!
Not healed
But improved.. Dear, dear friend..haha
Whatever it is, you're still my dear friend.."

There's that.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!
ENJOY IT
BUT
DON'T FORGET
TO
study...
I'll be mugging soon too..:(
No choice lorr...
Da nak dekat 2nd semester's exam.. Budak budak kelas aku pun, PANDAI TO THE MAX NYE!! Otak satu satu cepat hafal...
FUH!!
GP test that day...
I mean two days ago..
I.think.. I did fine. AQ mcm gigi..lol
I forgot when GP classes are..

BAHAS TOMORROW!!
MWTI VS NJC!
LET'S PRAY FOR THE BEST!
TO TAM, HUZAIFAH, SYAFIQAH AND KAK MURNI. ALL THE BEST!!
GO MWTI!!

I'd better go now! Lots to do !
I'll see you guys whenever I'll see you guys.
TAKE CARE!!

If I have wings
I would flap so hard so that I'll move faster
&
could help everyone faster.

But I don't

Instead,
I have a brain and heart
A soul and feelings
With wisdom,
those things are the best weapons I could have
So that I'll be able to see you and others smiling...

lots of love,

nrlfrhna

picnic

2009-05-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hey there!
Today, wasn't a picnic.....
Ever since last year, 26 May, hasn't been a day to anticipate for me.. & its still is...
Today.. hurts a lot
One after another.
It made me wonder, what's next..
I guess because of the happenings, I learn that I need to be more patient...
Sometimes, people make judgements without getting to know whoever it is they're judging. Asal main cakap aja... I'm tired of hearing about it.. You, don't know me...Yet, you judge me.. In my eyes, you are being so unfair.. Ugh..

Anyway...
I just feel like getting this message across to someone.. Things have changed, even so I hope you smile, always..

Gotta go prepare for another brilliant day tomorrow!
Take care!
Lots of love,
nrlfrhna

AGAIN..'-.-

2009-05-24T22:15:00.001+08:00

A reason to smile...... k.. random... lols
K.. HELLO PEOPLE!!
Apa khabar? How are you? I sound so crazy.. -.- heh~
I'm tried.. days of sleeping late continue without stopping...
Can't wait for the hols!!
So I can revise and relax....
Spent time with old friends, perhaps? Hahaha.. yeah..
and.. it's the 24th of may.. Happy birthday to seri hannah, again.
2 more days until I crown myself a champion.. woots! I think.. :(
K.. gtg..
Have a great week ahead and all the best for results!!
Lots of love, nrlfrhna

GP

2009-05-24T11:24:00.002+08:00

hello there!
Happy birthday to SERI HANNAH!

Hmm... GP..
test is on Wednesday and I.. have no idea what to study on..
Got to go to the library and read.. haha
Those who care to join.. do sms..haha

Today... am suppose to go my friend's elder brother's wedding but.. shish.. I got to study and I miss the library la seih.. lol

k.. gtg now
have a great day!
lots of love,
nrlfrhna

change

2009-05-23T21:45:00.002+08:00

Hello!
I am.. TIRED!!!
Came back late today due to some very important reasons.. ^^

Anyway, I arrived home at 11:15 pm yesterday! Haha! Attended a very interesting talk at Sheraton Towers. Grand Mufti of Syria, Dr Ahmad Bader Eddin Hassoun gave a very good talk on "Islam's enduring values for humanity". He encouraged us to understand each other and do good to each other no matter what sort of background we all come from. I enjoyed the session very much!
The event was great. I got to meet my dearest Arabians, some friends from Junied and Irsyad.. Haha..

I'm actually here to say something to some people... Like a Malay saying goes, "Siapa gigit cili, terasa pedas."
Haishh.. rumours... I hear stories that some people are saying that I'm with someone. Which is obviously not true... Apa saje entah.. Main cakap aja.... Sedap je bobal.. Hish... Make false assumptions, lepas tu, cakap far ni bedek la apa la.. I'm contented with the way I am now, buat apa nak sebok sebok ada matae? Betol tak? Betol sangat.. -.- Anyway, I... am carrying the responsbility to show example. Well, students from Arabiah, will know that I will do my duties and try to carry out the responsibility as well as I can. They know, how strict I can get when something is shouldered on me. So I would very much appreciate it if you could let it rest? Thanks

I.... am very grateful for the people in my current school. Thank you Allah for uniting me with them. They opened my eyes to lots of things and they bring realization back to me.. During the holidays last year, I changed. A lot. Most of the changes I made, were bad.. Even my parents were not fond of it. However, ever since I step into this school, I have found the need to change for the better and I will change for the better. I don't like to dissapoint people..

I'd better go now! It's way past 11 o clock.
I'm sleepy and I can't wait to sleep!
The lesson on Sastera today, was alright.. Learned something..:)
Take care everyone!
Have a great weekend!
Happy birthday to my schoolmate, Khairul Zaman, a.k.a Arab! May Allah bless him.
Lots of love,
nrlfrhna

HEY!

2009-05-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hey there!
Am here to annouce that this blog is currently, BACK IN ACTION!!
Of course, the spaces will never be neglected..
Links and tag board is right at the bottom..
Feel free to tag..

I am BUSY!
Kinda..
Tomorrow's schedule will be hectic
Rushing here and there..
From morning till night..
-.-
Will have to skip some classes because of things.. -.-

K...
That's it for today..
Kinda tired...
Sleepy..
Hope you guys will have a great day tomorrow! :)
TAKE CARE!!

lots of love,
nrlfrhna

ps: KRIS ALLEN WON AMERICAN IDOL.. lols..

BAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!

2008-12-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

H-E-to the double "L"-O!!
Hello!! Hi!!
How are you love-lies doing?? Good??
I surely hope so darlings...
It's been a couple of days since I updated as I was freaking busy with life..
Monday~ Emergency yada yada with family...
Tues~Final day at work.. resigned from working in the F & B industry..
Wednesday~ Went to Johor with Kherya and auntie..
Thursday, which is today~ Packed for my trip away from home tomorrow!! Yessa!!

So here's the conclusion.. Tomorrow, I will be heading off for holiday with my family from the paternal side.. Of course, the awesome granny is going to tag along.. She's highly adorable.. My family and I will be going to Kuantan, Genting and KL for a week. I think. Due to this reason, I won't be able to reply to your e-mails.. Sorry dearies.. I'll see to it when I get back next week.. k, honey(s)?? I love your stories and opinions though, so keep sending!!

I feel blessed.. really blessed.. Alhamdullilah.. Life has been great.. I'm feeling awesome too.. Praises to Allah.. I'm uncomfortable with sharing how I came to being who I am now, yet.. but someday I will and it's going to shock you guys... It shocked me too when I had but like I said, thank Allah for everything that has been happening to me..

Dearest readers,
while I'm gone.. I hope you guys will continue reading and sharing things with me.. Do take care.. Remember.. it pays to give your heart a little time to heal. Don't force it cause it'll hurt you more.. Family first.. k??

Lots of love,
nrlfrhna

quizz!!

2008-12-12T18:53:00.001+08:00

I was bored so I took a quiz earlier and here it is:

What does your name means?
::: Light of happiness..

What's your star sign?
:::LEO the lion... RAWR! Hahah

Are u born perfect?
::: no one is.

What's your 5 year old kid ambition?
::: a teacher.. I've ALWAYS wanted to work with kids..

Are you happy with the groups you always join in school?
::: YESSA BECAUSE THEY ARE simply THE BEST!!

Do you act exactly like your current age?
::: i tried to.. it's hard cause I'm flawed.

What is your weird habit?
::: making up words to express my anger like, doodoo or dingdong because I hate vulgar words..

Are you happy to be skinny, fat, or average?
::: I'm happy as long as I'm healthy...

What time were you born?
::: that time when my parents are excited that I was their first baby girl.. YAY!

Are u like really close to your parents?
::: yeah..

What's your best features?
::: *shrugs* however most people say they like my bush..

What is "ugly" to you?
::: Ugly is children being treated wrongly. Ugly is war. Ugly is the new pretty: What matters is what's inside, not the package that houses someone.

What's your religion?
::: ISLAM!! YAAAY!

Can you predict? And does it mostly happen according to your predictions?
::: no because NOT knowing what's going to happen is fearsome but it's what makes life great.

Is being famous the best damn thing ever?
::: No.. seing what's happening with being famous, I don't think so.

Are you happy right now?
::: YES!! Blesses to Allah for that :)

What are you doing right now?
;:: thinking of what to wear to the wedding invitation tomorrow..

Is there anything you find it hard to believe?
::: Me. I find myself hard to believe.

Tomorrow, rusdi's elder brother is getting married and my classmates and I have been invited. I'm planning on what to wear tomorrow and I hope that their marriage is forever.
Anyway blesses to Allah for calming my heart. FINALLY. ALHAMDULLILAH. I miss koala bear.. Yes.. I'm finally moving on. Hopefully I'll stay strong and with Allah's will, I will have a chance to create happiness of my own. InsyaAllah..

I'd better go now.
Have a great weekend and do take care.
lots of love, nrlfrhna

prayers

2008-12-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

Ya Allah
kurniakan lah ketuatan kepada ku
agar ku bisa terus berjalan tanpanya
agar ku bisa terus hidup tanpa kehadirannya

Ya Allah
jika rindu yang ku rasakan benar,
izinkan aku mendapat kebahagiaan dengan yang dirindui
kerana apa yang ku rasakan sekarang, hanyalah apa yang pahit,
iaitu kerinduan dan keseorangan
Seperti orang lain, ku juga dambakan kebahagiaan.
Permudahkanlah perjalananku kerana memudahkan, adalah sesuatu yang mudah untuk-MU
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

Yeah, I know what I want now. I want to search for happiness. I don't want to cry and hurt anymore. I'm listening to the heart and I'm not going to hold back. I don't want to dissapoint anyone.. Especially my parents. I want a normal life, a normal heart and I'm looking forward to a new one whereby, childhood friend remains childhood friend, classmates remain as loveones and friends remain friends. I'm filtering some people off.. SORRY.. I'm doing this to improve myself and if a change is going to heal me then a change I'll make.. :) I want to become a better human being.. I want to start performing my responsibilities.. InsyaAllah..

Take care, y'll
lots of love,
nrlfrhna

Zara's birthday!!

2008-12-07T22:11:00.006+08:00

me and yaya

yaya and our nephew, irfan

yaya, me and anisa

us. AGAIN.

the birthday wishes.

food from Pariaman. YUMMO!

zara and her papa

she's shy

she was told to pull her skirt down

then she cuts.

auntie zareen and auntie maria..

the happy family.

birthday girl loves the ring

Hayden.. auntie Julie's son

birthday!!

and again

zara and bibik suti

auntie za, zara and hayden..

zara trying to rip the wrapper open.

yes yes.. that's the way!!

So, that was some photos from zara's birthday party. It was held at Mandarine Garden's function hall and the party included, games for all ages and face painting..

So.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!! BLESSINGS FOR ALL THIS NEW YEAR!! DO TAKE CARE AND PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY WRONGDOINGS!! :)

LOTS OF LOVE,

NRLFRHNA

words for people who don'

2008-12-03T21:32:00.002+08:00

hello darlings!!

I've gotten dear diary back so I won't be sharing my stories with dear bloggy that much. SORRY.. However today, 3rd of December, 9:50pm, I pledge to build a boundary around myself and some people. For now at least. To some people, you know who you are, I have my own reasons as to why I stopped you from contacting me. I have my own reasons for not replying to your messages and for ignoring your calls. Soal hati, biar hati yang menentukan keinginannya. Get it?

After all that has happened, I believe I have a right to be a little selfish. I've let that someone go and have his own happiness with a girl he loves after all that has been done. It's time for me to create my own happiness. Like him, I'm entitle to have my wants and needs, realized and granted. Like him, I'm a human being with feelings. Not just a mere statue that has a body but not a soul. Other than that, I believe I have the right to say no to things I do not wish to have. I'm not a rag doll but a human being. What I want to do now, is to fill my life with little bits and pieces of things I enjoy doing or people whom I love to be with. I love being with my classmates and my family. To that, I believe for the next few weeks they are the non-family members whom I will be spending most of my time with. For the time being, I am not interested to find someone new or socialise. I'm making this clear because I cannot stand people who keep asking why I do this, or why I did that? If any of you are thinking of asking that, my answer would be, because I want to do that or I did it because it's my choice. As simple as that. There's another thing that I want, which is talking to people I enjoy talking with and maintaining the already-bonded relationship.

Did I made that clear, or what? :)

Oh yes, just for your information, I have not burn it. I don't think I want to. I'd rather keep it for keepsake. Please remember that it's my choice and it hasn't crossed my mind to blame you for it. :) I mean really.. I just want a normal life.

Aw..I miss owl.. *sighs*

gotta go now..
the first paragraph is for people who just don't understand. FUH!!
Goodnight everyone.
Take care and have a great week.
lots of love, nrlfrhna

coincidences.. hahaha

2008-11-22T20:33:00.003+08:00

Holla readers, I had a really great day today.. Met Syarifah Nurjannah, to study Arabic with her.. It's really cool and we had lots of fun studying together. Although we are close friends, we haven't been spending time with each other for a couple of months now so to spend the day with her feels great. Anyway, coincidentally, when we had just finished studying, a choir from Anglo Chinese School (Junior) came to sing some songs. The choir was lead by, if I'm not mistaken the conductor's name was Ms. Shia Lim. The choir sounded GREAT!! It was beautiful to listen to and watch. As you can see from the photos, the choir was wearing batik shirts which looked pretty and it matches what they're singing.. I supposed it's folk songs.? Hmm...

After studying, we headed of to Sultan Mosque to perform our prayers. Wa La!! We met our classmate Zarah!! We event get to see her in action. She's working as a tour guide there. Concidentally after our prayers, we saw a wedding ceremony happening right there at the male's praying hall. It is a trend for people to wed at the mosque? Hmm... I wonder..

I enjoy spending time with my classmates. They are simply the best medicine to any problems. Whenever I'm with them, I forget about my troubles. Sec 5 'O8, a name that will stay in my heart for the rest of my life.. Love them lots. :)

Right!

That's all for today..

Take Care and have a great weekend.

Lots of love, nrlfrhna..

today..hmm

2008-11-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

Work was great today!! It went on per usual. However there was no singing coming from Abang Hafiz, because Abang Hafiz has to work at Woodlands, no jokes coming from Ais because Ais wasn't there(I suppose she worked at Queenstown) and I was able to understand LinNa because Pu Chou was there.. Yippee!! Not to mention that Kak Siti and Kak Nor are back from their off day.. Haha

Hmm. Hmm.. Hmmm.. Congrats to Irsyad for doing so well in the PSLE!! This proves that madrasah CAN produce good students for both worlds..

Anyway.. hmm hmm hmm.. tomorrow I'm hitting books with Jannah sometime over at someplace which is kinda cool. Haven't been spending time with her.. Hoho~

Thing is, I have decided to find my heart. Find the heart that isn't numb. This kind of thing is freaking frustrating but I'll give it time cause I still believe in love.

Gotta go now..
Have a great weekend..
Do take care.
Love, nurul

first day of work...

2008-11-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone..
Today was my first day of work and dang.. it's tiring but fun..
My colleagues are SUPER friendly and I enjoy working with them.. Tomorrow is another day.. Another BUSY day more like it..FYI, I am working at a cafe..
So anyway, the moment I reached work, I was asked to read the recipe file for about 20 minutes before I head off to the kitchen to start my training and start working. That was where I stayed for the rest of the day. I almost fell because the kitchen floor was slippery with oil and water. I had a great time attending to the customers though.. Heh~ So I went home smelling so bad that I felt guilty about sitting beside those people in the bus. Poor them had to endure the stinking smell that I had on. Phew!!

Anyway, my close friends think that I'm changing.. Part of me agrees with it but it seemed so sudden. I hadn't be able to see that I'm changing until they told me. I was shock but I'm accepting it because the change is clear. I hardly talk to them as much as text message them and I spend more time with other people other than them. According to them I'm becoming more anti-social. They said the prefer the bubbly-happy-go-lucky nrlfrhna. Heh~ Sorry guys will try to do better. They think I've changed because of my experience with u-know-who. Hmm.. I don't know..

I better go now.. I'm sleepy
I have to study..
Come on me! Heh~
Have a great week y'll..
Take care
love, nrlfrhna

Shopping!!

2008-11-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

Holla!!
It's 10:34 in the morning and I feel kinda sleepy and this nose of mine won't stop sneezing. Thing is, last night I accompanied my brother shopping. Since my brother collects football stuff. It started of with jerseys then he moved on to balls and now boots! So the moment we entered the shopping mall, we hit the closest shoe shop. There my brother fell in love with the new Nike Mercurial boots in blue and white. However, according the shopkeeper, the latest colour from that design is Blue and lime green. Being stubborn as he is, my brother still wants the blue and white ones which, I have to admit, are pretty cool. So we surveyed a few other shops, they had the blue and white one but they don't have his size. In the end, he settled for the blue and lime green one which is nice but like him, I too prefer blue and white one. We were like, "might as well buy this one. What if it next one comes out more shinier that the one we've got?" Then my brother went, "It's unique though." Feeling as tired as I could be, I went. "Yeah okay. Cool."
Reached home at about 9+pm. Just in time to catch the last few bits of Cheetah girls. Nyahaha.

With all these shopping that's happening, I realize that sometimes, we can get great bargains if we give ourselves time to survey the same item at different shops at different places. Sometimes we can even get cool items at great prices on the internet if we wouldn't mind paying the extra $3 for shipping that is. :) I've put a great interest in shopping. I find it interesting to even look at things and see how the shopkeepers try to get people to buy their products or items. Now this is something I don't find fun very often. Heh~ I've always been the kind that takes only 2 mins to buy stuff. I'll have what I want to buy in mind then go in grab the item then get out of the shop. However, lately, it takes me an hour + to get out of the shop. Haha. Drastic change? Hmm.. Hahaha. I think I might post up my findings here. Would be interesting, wouldn't it?

Right.. So.. I think I'll wrap up for today.
If you are selling some cool items, don't forget to let me in with the latest buzz...
You can always e-mail me at find.me-lurun@hotmail.com
Thank You so much for reading!
Take care and have a great Sunday.!
Lots of love,
nurul

women

2008-11-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

"Women can have it all. How true is this?"

To me, women can have it all provided that people in their lives understand their yearns, rants, desires and needs. Sometimes, men take those things away. They want us to listen to them but they won't listen to us. I'm sure most of you have argued with your boyfriends or your partners, about your social life. Guys don't like it if we talk to other guys even if the guys that we talk to happen to be our friends. As much as they stick with us, they tend to get pushy and sometimes I feel that they are trying to be the captain of our ships which is not fair. They're doing that to show that they are caring but sometimes, they have to let us off their hook. Give and take, that's the way we like it. :)

Other then men, our responsibilities stop us from getting what we women want. A mother has to care for the whole family, a daughter has to do all the chores especially if they are the eldest. The worst part is, some women have to do everything on their own which is unfair. Every women deserve at least a minute for themselves. Afterall, who is the one doing all the caring and domestic needs? Women.

Though, I would like to give a round of applause to all the men who have been trying their hardest to make our lives easier and happier. For being that support system us women need. THANK YOU SO MUCH!! KEEP IT UP!! :)

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Today...
Hmm.. it's been raining, again.. Boohoo..
Hmm.. k.. I can't talk anymore..
Please not that I am not here to discriminate or defame everyone. Just telling what I think..

Lots of love,
nurul

Boring with a capital "B"

2008-11-13T17:16:00.000+08:00

Whatever!!
I'm freaking tired and I don't know why.. Life after O is boring with a capital "B".It had been raining many times today and stopped about an hour before this post was posted. It's been a cold morning. I am seriously not used to doing nothing with a capital "N". Usually, on a Thursday evening like this I will be at school, preparing the hall for prayers, getting the students to keep quiet, arranging things and arranging people(trust me, I did). I always have something to do until.. now.. After O levels.. *Sighs**

I've been waiting for the manager to call but he still hasn't call.. Shish.. Called his place but his worker answered and she doesn't seem to understand the word "outcome". Can't believe she got the job when she can't even get the meaning of the word properly. Seems like she's thinking that I am interested to apply for the job. However I already applied with my cousin, Khairiah and when he called khairiah, he said that I will be working at Jurong and he told me to wait for his call. Hmmmmph... Please Please Please CALL ME.. My bill just came and it doesn't look pretty..

*breathing*
However, something happened today. Dad went to that school and that school wants me to sit for entrance exam on the 27th November at 8am. For what subject? I don't know. Dad reckons it's Arabic but it can't be Arabic only right?? What about English?? Or Malay?? Or other things?? Guess I'll just have to revise everything.. GREAT! Here's something for me to do.
:)

Darn.. this head has been throbbing with a capital "T" and I don't know why... It hurts a lot and it's not the usual headache. It's those ones that hurt all over especially when you nod. Phew!! Is this migrain? I don't know.. I just want it to go.

I have to share something with you guys. Thing is, I feel like, hmm... shish well.. you know when you feel like a burger that is squished between two pieces of bread and both pieces wants you?? Get it??

I better go now.
To all those getting their results, ALL THE BEST!!
Take care.

Love,
nurul

YES YES YES!!

2008-11-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

YES!! I'VE BEATEN YAYA TO THE RACE AGAINST THE CLOCK!! I'VE POSTED THE PHOTOS FIRST.. :P Actually I had the advantage because I haven't start working while yaya started hers this morning.. Sent her to her workplace.. Her manager is cute la.. hahaha

Yesterday was freaking fun...because after my final paper, yaya and I went out to search for jobs again. Alhamdulillah.. It worked this time..Hopefully I'll be able to start work ASAP so that we can go ****** ASAP.. there, I'll leave those memories behind..I just want to move on.. it's hurting even more and I'm having doubts about the part where I think it's worth the wait..

Whatever..

Anyway.. yesterday was FUN FUN FUN!! However, it was tiring.. Met Amirah and Razis then we tried applying a job at Secret Recipe thanks to Razis's suggestion but.. haha.. let's wait for the verdict.. We ate at Secret Recipe.. Amirah treated us to some YUMMO chocolate cakes... Prayed then went home.. Before meeting Amirah, Yaya and I spent time looking for jobs together. Met Afrah and Afzah. Hung out at Masjid Sultan, met some students from Japan.. Look out from some unique shops with cool stuffs. Then overnight at her house and sent her to work this morning!! I love her.. She hates it when I consider her my best friend though..HAHAHA.. She's my blood and meat lah.. HHAHAHA...

So to Yaya and Ashfaq, all the best with work.. Let's see how long you two last..:P

K then.. I'm super tired.. gotta go now.. TKCR...

Lots of love,

nurul

Updates!!

2008-11-07T08:33:00.000+08:00

I love..

~my dimples.. haha.. yeah..

~Kherya and Anisa.. missing Anisa.. haven't seen her for quite a while.. *sobs*. As for Kherya hmm.. let me think.. we're always out job hunting together so yeah.. hahaha..

~someone.. just someone..

So.. yesterday was tiring.. I had to sit for geography paper 1 afterwards, I met Kherya and ashfaq for late lunch... We scanned through the papers for a job.. and guess what?? No luck.. We're going again today.. Hope luck sides us.. InsyaAllah..

Yahoo!! Not the website.. YAAAAAAAHOOOOO!! The expression.. I only have 1 more paper to go then I'll say bye2 O levels.. However, I wonder when my friends and I can really say bye bye.. (not that I want it to happen but.. yeah)? 29th November at Pasir Ris?? Hmm.. Love them lots...

OBAMA WON!! YIPPEE!! SO HAPPY ABOUT IT!! Roger Federer reigns supreme!! (to my cousin Khalis, Nadal lost) Louis Hamilton won this seasons' race!! Was wanting Fernando Alonso to win or Kimi Raikonen .. but yeah.. Louis is fine.. Cristiano Ronaldo is back!! YEAH!! Manchester United is back on the roll!! Since there's Berbatov and Rooney.. I'm sure they'll win this season... I'm all for them.. Are you?? Sorry Liverpool fans..

I was reading the Blair Witches File.. The story book.. It's the kind of books that gets the creep out of you but it makes you sit and read no matter how scary it gets.. I'm in love with the book.. Didn't know that I had it until I saw it.. Seems like I've had it since 2004.. haha

K then..

All you blair fans and readers.. Take care..

Remember, have faith and keep praying..

Lots of love,

Nurul

funny!! Wait, not really.

2008-10-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hello I'm back!!
After a really tiring day...
Had maths paper super early in the morning at TKS..Then, I went out with Sued, Atik, Izy, Yaya and my first ever and forever will be greatest friend, HARYANTI..
It was great. We went to Bugis to shop for Atik's birthday gift, Haryanti's farewell gift (she's going back to Malaysia.. :( ) and of course have our brunch together... It was tiring though as we had to send someone to Bras Basah.. I pity him. He knows how to hurt my close friend and treat her like she's not worth any respect but he doesn't know how to go to Bras Basah.. HAHA!
After spending all those time at Bugis, Haryanti and I headed to City Hall. Ate early dinner at a foodplace which is a long walk from City Hall MRT. The atmosphere at the foodplace was AMAZING. Light breeze, view of the Esplanade, great company and more importantly, GREAT FOOD!! YUMMY!!

It's been a long time since Haryanti and I got to spend time together. Most of the time she's in Malaysia while I am busy with whatever it is that made me busy and so, the friendship became on hold. It's difficult to make time for our friendship due to our different schedules so to have the chance to spend the day with her was A BLAST!! Thing is, Haryanti and I are close friends since primary five. Due to our closeness, we were teased a lot. Some people called us lesbians, others just think of us as couples.. LOL..Before I move on any further, let me get this straight, Haryanti and I are NOT LESBIANS. Its just that, we stuck with each other too much. Haha. Everytime we meet, she and will laugh until our stomachs ache. She is those type of girls who tells jokes all the time and she can look at someone, find something funny or interesting about that person and just laugh. RIDONKULUS!! Hahaha. In addition to that, she LOVES TO SEND ME NUDGES. Especially, when we're chatting. However, I don't care about those things because I simply love her.

Hahaha... funny how things change the moment I left school. FINALLY, OH FINALLY, THEY implement those rules.. I get bored sometimes. When I was there, my suggestions were ignored and now, they making kids feel like they are being controlled. During my presidential speech, I suggested that we implement rules slowly. Take one matter at a time, so that the kids won't rebel too much. However, were those suggestions, agreed? NO!! Councillors, especially those who were given the responsibility to take over the seniors' place. Were they doing their duties?? YES BUT.. well I suppose those who "see" it will know what they are doing. I care because I still love that place. That second family but now I felt that the family is breaking apart and I don't think I like it. Guess the only thing I can do is pray.

Okkay then, I better go. It's 10:32 pm and I'm feeling kind of sleepy.
Goodnight, y'all..
love, nurul

Why I am who I am...

2008-10-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hello there!!
This is my 2nd post and I'm happy about it..
Today is a pretty boring day.. I didn't get much done.. Study, eat, sleep..
Darn it, I'm so tired...

Anyway.. before I bore everyone down.. I just want to speak out what's in my mind..
This IS MY blog...
I'm just tired of people trying to contradict my every move..
I hate it when people force to become what they want me to become..
I'm just me so if you can't accept it, just stay away from me and stop gossiping about me..
Just get OFF my back and STOP trying to control my every move...STOP IT!! NOW!!

Most people say that I'm too religious...
SO WHAT?? I'm ME and this is my life..
I can be who I want to be, however I'd like to be and it's none of your beeswax..
SO JUST SHUT UP!!
I admit that I started out as who I am now because I was being forced. My parents are pretty strict on me. While I was growing, mum and dad gave me the freedom to do what I want but they set some rules that I don't even dare to disabide. Due to that, plus my school rules, I grow up setting some very firm principles that I stood by despite what people say about me. I grow up knowing that the principles I've set for myself, is not going to get me into trouble with the discipline commitee at school or even my parents..

Well I do get into trouble with my parents but not THAT big of a trouble. Little things that I mislooked. Somehow, because I grow up having to set an example to others by being a prefect and a students' councillor. I feel the need to be responsible of the duties given to me. I feel the need to become examplary. In addition to that, I don't want my juniors to be in trouble. I don't want them to get pregnant underage, I don't want them to suffer from cancer because of their smoking habits, I want them to be "expensive" girls that deserve their husbands' respects when they get married later on. I don't want them to become someone who doesn't deserve ANY RESPECT!! This is why I did what I did. This is why I'm strict about my actions.

As days go by, I'm worried. I'm so worried about the people I cared about. I'm in tears because I'm scared for them. You're underage and you're having sex. I live by moments where I cry because I worry, because I care. How can you be all touchy with someone you don't know you'll marry? I just want these tears to stop flowing but I'm not strong enough to do so..

I read the newspaper recently and somehow I agree with the writer. There's this article from BH on Monday, 20th October about etiquette or behaviour during Hari Raya. He's right, thank goodness for Hari Raya.. If not, we'll be seeing a lot of flash. We're Malays, our culture is make up of shyness. Shyness to do what's wrong, shyness to not show our bodies except to our husbands. Girls especially. The writer said and I quote (thanks for the permission!), "Ada anda lihat 'tabung' bergerak? 'Pusat-pusat bertindik'? Kalau nampak pun, mungkin kuranglah ya? Tapi kalau mengenakan pakaian yang ketat dan menampakkan tubuh badan pun buat apa ya? Selagi menampakkan tubuh badan atau bentuk tubuh, ia masih dikira aurat." What he meant is, "Did you see moving 'piggy banks'? Pierced bellybutton? If you did see it, maybe lesser(than normal), right? However, what's the use of wearing tight clothings and showing off the shape of your body? As long as it shows the shape of your body, it is still considered as 'aurat' (parts you are not suppose to reveal)"
See??
A display message from my friend in msn said that, "skinnies are meant for skinny people. Even Tyra said that." We are girls, we are supposedly made of properness and modesty. It's hard to be "THE" girl kind of girl but we have to do what we can so that people will respect us as a woman who deserve to be respected despite our mistakes. It's so ironic that sometimes we know that we do is wrong, but we still do it then have the cheek to tell others it's wrong.

I'm saying "we" because even I am guilty of doing it. Everybody is. I don't know why but maybe it's because human beings are full of pride.

Angers and sadness are gone... for now.
Catch you guys later. Meanwhile, do tag. :)

Lots of love,
nurul

~if only you knew..~

welcome

2008-10-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.. welcome to my new blog.. !!
lets call this the more updated version of www.nrlfrhna.live.spaces.com which will be closed soon... So please do not go there...
First and foremost, maybe I should introduce myself..
I will refer myself as Nurul because I like it.. Actually it's something I'm used to.. :)

Anyway.. it's my O level year and I had to sit for English paper today...
It was terrifying but I suppose I did good.. I don't know..
Mama and auntie are confident about it but I'm having doubts..
I just hope that it turns out the way they think...

Tomorrow is an offday so I get to take a break today..
Auntie's orders...
YIPPEE!!

Feels kind of weird typing in this blog...
I guess it's because all my stories are in the old blog..
I don't know..
Oh well.. I just have to adapt to it..

You know what?? Sometimes, I really feel like a cooped up bird..
People see me as that rule-abider, that girl who is so good that listens to the elders' every order..
Deep inside, I'm not.. I know I'm not.. especially now that I've graduated..
Fine, I am.. a bit..
I just want, for once, do things I want to do without anyone minding it...
Not having anyone checking on me(except for my parents) and not having anyone to force me to become "examplary".
It's my life, and they can't cage me up forever..
I just want to breathe.. So please.. Let me.. It's been 11 years.. 4 years of it I was guarded..
I want to be examplary in MY way.. so please please please.. please??

Great!!
So I will see you guys in my next post.. whenever it is that I want to post..
Ouh yes, do tag and do share with me on whatever it is that you want to share.. either here or at find.me-lurun@hotmail.com.. The old readers know about it..haha

If you hurt, give your heart sometime to heal.. Just don't force it.. Let time heal it..

Love,
nurul

Testing..

2008-10-21T08:04:00.001+08:00

Testing...